Three Poems...and a realisation....

Quite a few days ago...I wrote 3 poems...poems in bangla..after a long time...and I got so excited about it...that i wrote the poems in Bangla Font(thanks to Avro Keyboard)...and made a jpeg file out of it...after it was done... i praised myself and went to sleep....since then i wrote nothing in bangla...The frightening realisation that i had recently...that i am losing my "bangla" self...made me read sharat chandra vigorously... even during my semester..and hence i think the bengali inside me survived..But now..Somewhere in my mind...someone still shouts..."I dont want to survive as a BONG....i want to live as a Bangali"....so i thought of "publishing" those three poems..in my blog...

Theres no certain reason for me to do this...its a random wish born due to homesickness...thank you for patiently reading this introduction..though there was no need of it...whatever...... i guess..readers will have to work a bit in order to reach those three poems...

Click on the picture...and i presume...the hyperlink will lead you to the larger version of the file....sorry i found no other way to embedd these pictures...

@#@# WTF!! @#$$@$

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Look at me...

Look what I've become...

An optimist...

or an self-satisfied scum...

Smiling...

with blank cheque in my hand...

Smiling though....

knowing..that i'm sinking in quicksand....

Hello...can anyone hear me???

Am i audible???

Pull me up if you please...

dont let me rot in hell..

Look at the sky once...

Check out the twinkling of the stars...

Funny...eh!!?? Its just a ball of gas...

This time...I've gone...a bit too far...

I am sorry...this one is not so good...

As if... I write nice stuff

Please..please...tell me..I write nice...

I'd love to see you bluff!!!!

Childhood

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I danced in the rain...that first day...

made a paper boat and sailed it away..

the water flowed to a distant blue bay...

At the horizon...i see my white sail...sway!!!!

I wrote a poem...that first day...

the scorching sun..in some mid-may...

Some memories...on the bed I lay...

Silent thoughts...i heard a voice say....

I walked in the rain...that first day...

raindrops fell....from the sky so grey...

smoke streamed coffee...and a filled ashtray...

those days are gone....i wish...they'd stay!!!

Someday...

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You had promised...someday..we'll together..

go to that horizon...where the earth kisses the sky...

one day..we will run wild with glee..

in the valley of love...

you had promised..we will walk..hand in hand...

at the seashore...in the dusk...

someday..we'll laugh together...

till tears roll out our eyes...

someday...we'll plant a tree togther..

which will yield crimson flowers in spring...

You had promised, you'll call me...

and we'll fight over..every silly things...

You had promised...someday..we'll sit on the terrace...

with the sky above us...and count the stars...

you had promised...you'll wipe off my tears...and laugh with me...

Someday....you had promised...we shall always be together....

Till death takes us apart...

Someday...i waited for you...

time stopped by and waited with me...

and it passed..atlast.....

till the spring was over...and winter came...

and the tree we planted died....

and i waited....till death..took me apart!!!!

Forsaken....

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I've seen in the darkness...I've seen in the light...

the same way...as of an infant's sight...

A poisoned body and a wounded mind...

Unaccepted rage...angel blind...

The soul lingers about...ever forsaken...

frozen and inanimate...long silence unbroken..

Long lost hopes....distrust prevails...

I'm sorry...hatred and grudge still dwells..

Drift away...the memories too sour...

The garden is dead...with one live flower...

When Spring came..one flower none plucks...

Go away..please....assumptions fucks...!!!!

Some stupid verse...I conjure in hate...

I say sorry....better never than late...

They speak of you...the sahdows talk to me...

The forsaken flowers..the only thing I see...

Man...

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Idiocy was in his death....

Idiocy was in his birth...

Dont think his Idiocy...

to be some sacrocantic mirth...

Start thinking of someone else...

Jeopardizing his soul and self...

leaving every possession he has...

hidden...sacred in the highest shelf...

Like some property he inherits...

An overflown account in bank...

With silver spoon shoved in his mouth...

Society gives him..a highest rank!!!!

His Feet doesn't touch the land...

his overweight body floats in air...

He steals and rapes and kills...

He redefines what is fair!!!!

Blood Rose

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Silent Prayers within...silent words never spoken...

silent lies buried deep...silent desires never taken...

Hope mustering ...beneath the ages of time...

words don't come ...expressions mime...

Blood Rose...i give thee...the thorns do prick....

Love is dead...yet...it was just another trick!!!!

Sitting on a cloud...I count as many stars...

Some faces light up...near but yet so far...

Some poems burns away...some stays there for long....

I write an obituary...or maybe its a song...

Blood Rose...I give thee...smeared with tears i cry...

Love is dead...in vain..the lovers die....

The candle...the flickering flame...

the stigma...the unerasable blame...

Some day...these poems will burn..and turn to ash....

or used to cocoon some merciless hash...

Blood Rose ...i give thee...silent words to speak again....

I'm sorry...you were late...I'd long ago..died in vain!!!!